word.
key word for the year.
CHANGE.
to be a
1. more caring person
2. less of me and more of others.
love,
l.
a leech
I’m happy today because, I like what I wore.
The past week had been hectic but fun as usual. Had crazy ass time with Fionaryann behind the wavedesk yesterday despite the cold rainy weather. Everybody was in hoodies. Pretty funny.
After work, hanged out with some of the wave instructors at Harbour Front. The conversation with Arthur led me to think about the REAL deal. As in, people really do change. A huge part of me really want a change. Change in my mindset, change in my habits, change in the things that’s binding me. And there’s one thing that I would want to take a break from.
I just feel a sense of obligation going there every week and coming out feeling dejected. It’s not that I don’t believe in it. I do. And I prioritize it, but at this point, I feel drained more than being ministered. I still do believe with all my heart and I still have faith. But the physical aspect of it is draining me out.
I feel less bound when I think lesser and feel lesser.
****
On a shallower note,
I got an inspiration with what to do with my hair already.
And and I’m soooo soo soooper excited for Bali please!
****
My little’s brother’s getting fatter, lazier, less cuter and barbaric.
darn it!
****
love,
lyndel
question.
blackberry?
or.
the ever popular iPhone?
to conform?
or not to conform
now that is the question.
***
i have an impulsive feeling to delete every virtual social connections i have.
Facebook,
WordPress,
MSN.
love,
love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is.
Love is breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of eternal passion.
That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love, have roots that grow towards each other underground and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree and not two.
Louis de Bernieres.
And I’ll let God be the matchmaker.
Someday, I’ll meet you soon.
(damnit, i’m getting cheesy and corny and hopeless romantic as days go by)
lv,
lyndel
limbo.
sometimes, despite things going well, I still do sense that something is missing.
A bright day without the sun,
A bed without the pillow,
A fork without the spoon,
A fish without its bones,
And I said 2 months ago, that’ll be the last tear that’ll ever flow.
But it still comes.
I never knew heartbreaks can hurt so deep and for so long.
And I wish I could just erase all the happy memories so I won’t be sad thinking about them.
damn it!
i wish me gone and be done with life soon.
that way, i won’t feel this pain so much.
rewritten
i’m 4 days late to be drafting out my new year’s resolution. but oh well, here is it.
1. love recklessly. love wisely.
2. have fun.
3. stop reading into people’s actions. they are just the way they are.
4. party hard. be everybody’s sunshine.
5. laugh laugh laugh and just keep laughing.
love,
lyndel
hair issue
should i colour my hair beach blonde?
tee hee.
blinded.
and you said you haven’t met her yet?
i was standing right in front of you.
but i guess you were looking further.
i hope she’ll be amazing.
love,
lyndel
4 days late.
i’m 4 days late to be drafting out my new year’s resolution. but oh well, here is it.
1. love recklessly.
2. have fun.
3. stop reading into people’s actions. they are just the way they are.
4. party hard.
5. laugh laugh laugh and just keep laughing.
love,
lyndel
closing.
I shall officially announce the demise of Lyndel 2009. And welcome Lyndel 2010. With the clock ticking bringing us closer to a new year, I cannot help but feel nostalgic. I have this feeling every last day of the year. Sort of like, leaving a place forever. Moving to somewhere faraway. Leaving behind your past and entering a new phase in your life.
Well, 2009 had lots of ups and A WHOLE FREAKING SHIT LOAD of downs.
Graduating in poly. Totally lost. Quater life crisis. Darn, you don’t know how scary it is until you put yourself in that situation of not knowing the next step in life. When you realise, you’re not yourself anymore. When you realise the once cheerful and funny you lost her charm and positivity.
The most major let down of 2009 would be holding on to something I wanted so much to work out but in the end, having the other party just letting go. But I’d rather not dwell on the negativity of it. Cos I’ve become a stronger person. And that I can’t depend on anybody else for strength but through God. I’ve learnt so much and grown during that period.
But Praise God that despite all the tears and heartbreaks, God gave me a song to sing.
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.
Thank God for ending this year with the beach, the water, the sand and the hot bodies to ogle at during work ;P
It’s been filled with laughter. Lots and lots of sunshine and laughter.
Cheers to 2010, I’ll unwrap you in a few hours time, bit by bit. I know you’re gonna be an amazing year filled with lots of love, laughter and sunshine.
love,
L.
skinned.
I skinned my palm while skateboarding yesterday. Wanted to make a turn but the longboard went wayy too fast and the sand made it really dangerous. So I kk to be cleaning myself and gracefully stood up. I fell at the bar near the flowrider! Hopefully the people were too concentrated watching the people flowboard.
The day passed by pretty slowly yesterday probably due to the bad weather that kept drizzling in the morning and early afternoon.
I was chilling up the restaurant, overlooking Siloso Beach, sipping on a glass of cold Sprite watching people make a fool of themselves flowboard during break time today. That relax!
You know, at this point, I don’t consider the thing that I do, as work. More like, lifestyle.
Well,
MERRY CHRISTMAS MUGHEADS!
I got pretty awesome stuff this year.
love,
l
bong.
Life’s been pretty happening lately with so many people to meet up with.
The army guys having a 2 week block leave. Not that I am highly affected.
But real work has started for me.
Enjoying it.
The whole environment.
I’ve yet to flowboard soon!
My new found love.
My mind is currently not working.
toodles!
love,
lyndel
water.
Today marks the beginning of…..
me being a Sentosa Islander.
HAHAHA.
Okay fine! That’s not really what I’m excited about.
I am officially part of Siloso Beach’s next BIG, HUGE, MAGNANIMOUS, HUMONGOUS! thing.
Uhha.
Signed the appointment letter.
And I CAN’T FREAKING WAIT TO START WORK!!!
SERIOUSLY!!!
IT’S GONNA FEEL LIKE ETERNITY WAITING FOR THE FIRST DAY OF WORK!
CAN’T WAIT!!
Anyho,
I finally got the hang of it– riding on the Flowrider.
Awesome!
The last time I rode, I kept playing safe with the bodyboard.
This time, I’m all in the flowboard baby!
Flowriding is the new addiction!
I saw this cute little thing scampering around today.
I seriously am seriously excited for 21st Dec.
Countdown: 14 flipping days to go!
lovemuch,
lyndel-san.
Riding.
This is my first entry for the month of December, the last month of the year 2009.
Oh gawd! The year’s ending.
Anyho,
Life’s been great. Like totally awesome. And I can forsee the next few weeks and 2010 will be an even happening year for me. Can’t wait can’t wait!
Sun, Sand and water.
In flip flops and board shorts.
That sounds like an ideal job attire and workplace don’t it.
;D
love
l
first things first.
That reminds me of my Primary 4 teacher Ms Jennifer Soon who always started with “first things first”.
Anywoots, first things first.
TP HOCKEY GIRLS FINALLY WON A FREAKING MEDAL FOR FREAKING TP.
Hope they’ll shove it to the management asses and let us have the hockey pitch equipped with floodlights. ;P
It was a bittersweet victory especially for the seniors who worked real hard for 3 years and finally a medal!
***
You know, sometimes I’d laugh at how sometimes we swore not do something ever again. But in the end, we’d let our guards down and we’re back to where we were.
And how sometimes, we’d settle for the second best because we don’t have enough faith to trust God for the bestest.
Weird huh.
Oh well,
Life’s always like that. Nobody ever gets out of it alive.
So just take it easy. Here’s Lyndel learning some life lessons. It’s never too good thinking too much. The more you know, the more you realise you don’t know. So might as well not know so much so I won’t know how much I don’t know.
love,
lynd
doramu.
That’s Japanese for Drums!
ドラム Doramu. so kawaii neh.
On Wednesday, went to attend a Drum Clinic by this INSANE drummer called Kozo Suganuma aka Te-ka-zoh at Ngee Ann Auditorium with Joshua and another drum instructor called Thomas.
MAN! That guy is insane. His strokes are zoom zoom zoom. He’s so fast! It’s insane. Looking at the drums brochures makes me salivate. So delicious!
And the way he played the electronic drum looks so delicious too! The sound that it made was pretty real.
The DTXEXPLORER series removes my doubts and disapproval about electronic drums. I mean, there’s this feature where you can play the bass part only to play along with the songs in a virtual session. So you can just plug in your Ipod and play your favourite song!!
It’s OOOH SOME! i tell you!!!!!!!
*you know what you can get me for christmas* *wink wink*
And of course the acoustic All Birch Shell.
That’s Raspberry Metallic. OHHHHH. even the word ”Raspberry” makes me oooz. Look how sexy that mate is. Wait till I get my sexy sticks and feet all over you darling!
****
On another note, been watching the Hockey POLITE the past 2 weeks. As usual the guys’ games is more exciting than the girls’. My heart fell with them for that LAST minute goal by SP. They could have owned that last match that could get them a medal.
But I must hand it to the guys, they played well and fought hard.
GAH! I miss hitting and scoring.
TRAINING!! Now that I’m craving for one, the coach is not around.
Did I mention I miss getting bruises on my shin and everywhere else I never realised I got bumped.
I miss waking up the next day admiring the beautiful blue-black oocheh and the sensation I get when I rub them. NICE!
;p
And I shall mention about the ABN AMRO Hockey Champions Trophy.
boom boom tah.
lyndel
musing.
the world will be in place if everybody just
LOVE WITHOUT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN.
love,
lyndel
sunday.
5 Items to spill out today.
1. Lyndiejo has been pre-occupied with quite a few things lately. Stuff that she is supposed to be working on but due to distractions, she has not the motivation to start working on them.
Well, my week has been great. Thank God!
2. Went fishing today at Kallang in the evening and I was having a conversation with someone who married his girlfriend after 10 years. One thing that struck me most is his stress in saying, “Relationship really NEED effort. Marrying too early is not very good. And one thing about being together for so long is actually a test whether you can take it or not”.
This was something I was pondering a little yesterday when I overheard two men discussing about annulment. The Guy A separated from his wife before 3 years and informed his friend that it is not called a ‘divorce’ rather it is ‘annulment’. Guy B had a divorce and swore off ever getting married again.
It got me thinking how relationships are such weirdo stuff. People get intoxicated in the initial stage with all these lovey dovey crap. And when the crap is out, uh-oh Danger! Danger! *blinking in bright red light* Houston, we got a problem. Abandon ship!!
This is really something to consider when one embarks on one.
Ohoh!
And one thing I’m gonna swear I’ll change about myself is to stop thinking too much and just go with the flow!
So just take that I didn’t just write an entry about annulment and divorce. Cos I swore not to think too much. ;P
Anyho anyho!
3. On my way back yesterday from WWW, I felt this little smile coming up on my face. I wanted to run and skip. And do the jump and the two feet tap each other. Teehee.
I think I wanna be a dancer.
4. I’m so going to take up diving in the next 2 years. I want to indulge in water sports. Can’t believe I am missing out on the fun stuff in the water. I just discovered, I love water! haha.
This coming week’s I am going to be pretty occupied again with stuff to do.
5. GAH! I need to improve on my drums drums drums!! I hate it when I keep playing the same beat and the same fill ins. It has been 3 months I have yet to move to another Grade!!! PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE. I wanna be the next Cindy Blackman.
Pretty noisy but she’s insane!
Okay! That’s my diarrhea in my fingers. LALALALALALALALALA!!
i feel like making someone laugh.
iheartsyouallveryverymuchdeworzxxx!
hugs and kisses, cookies and cream! muacks!
lyndel.
friday.
Things to thank God for.
1. The wonderful weather in the morning where I rolled out of bed to a nice cooling Friday.
2. Sam whom I can hang out with when I’m bored to tears. Thanks Sam for enduring my agonizing rants. And talking on the phone and making me laugh with your antics. 
you know I hearts you very much despite my sarcasm yes? What’s better way to show endearment than a little teasing rite? =D
3. The awesome people at Macgyver Consultants during the BE Global Conference. Working from 7.30-6 was a breeze when you’re with nice understanding people.
4. Simple things that gets me excited and laugh.
`I want to be someone who can make people laugh and make them feel genuinely appreciated.
love,
l
monday.
You know what they say about your thoughts?
Be careful what you think, because your thoughts run your life.
If I had a super power what would I want to have?
I thought for a while, and I decided, I’d want to read thoughts.
But the danger with that is, I’ll know every single thing you’ll be thinking.
Even those thoughts that are not very good.
I think if anyone ever had that super power and they’ll read my mind the past 3 months,
they’ll probably go insane with depression reading my thoughts. (They wish they never read mine)
But, it’s getting better.
I’m depositing more happy thoughts in my membrane.
I’m going back to the old goofy Lyndel who’s not scared of looking unglamorous, laugh so hard I’d almost snort, tell jokes that are actually funny.
I’ll smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile.
As the cliche goes, there’s always a rainbow after every storm.
“See the good in the bad, the purpose in the pain and God’s presence in the problem”
love,
L
i feel.
i’m running towards the big white blankets that God has prepared for me.
nice and cosy you see.
oh, the security
oh, the safety.
i’m running and jumping into His warm loving arms.
the storm is ending soon.
explain.
I am back from my little getaway.
Back from the ultimate road trip.
Back from my little escapism.
Although it was a short time, it felt like I have been away for ages.
The past three days got me thinking about putting my life in God’s hands. On the first day, we went to the theme park with all the roller coasters and stuff that brings your heart to your mouth.
Riding on a roller coaster is the same as living your life by faith. We know these rides are not going to be smooth. There’s going to be bumps along the way. There will be times when you are high and times when you are down. And sometimes, in life, it does happen like that. One moment, you are on top of the world, the next day you will be at the lowest pit. It may happen in a snap.
Living a life controlled by God is exciting. If I can be candid about it. At times, we would close our eyes when it plunges down. It is never easy living by faith. It is never easy taking that first step to sit on that roller coaster. We hold on tight. We close our eyes. We shout, we scream.
We know we are secure in the rides, seat belts, double seat belts, but we are still fearful. Likewise, God is our safety belt. He’ll never let us go through it without the safety belts. He even installed double seat belts to ease our minds. But we still worry that things may not go according to plan.
But you know what, at the end of the ride, everything turns out well. You had fun. You experienced it. The adrenaline rush. The fear. The euphoria.
I know this period of inertia for me is sort of like the part where the roller coaster starts. Slow and uncertain. I started from the low point and I am at the period of going up…slowly.
love,
l
appletrees.
Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren’t as good, but easy.
So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
closed.
i’m weird, eccentric and at times, a little insecure.
i’m emotional
i make mistakes.
but if you can’t handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
thrown.
The weekend started with some partying at Nicholas’ Buttday party.
But before that, had a nice PERSONAL TIME with Wirawan PSP at Cheenatown eating some ching chong piang
I was just thinking about eating Steamboat on Thursday night. And my wish was granted on Friday and Saturday. Awesome stuff.
Gee. God listens to my silly thoughts as miniscule as eating Steamboat. And not just once but twice!
So Saturday was an impromptu at Joe Wee’s Kitchen.
Next weekend is gonna be exciting! Can’t wait can’t wait!!
love,
l
yellow.
Things to thank God for
1. My little brother who willingly agreed to spend a late afternoon by the beach with his dear sister. It came to my realisation that he is growing up so fast. I’m afraid by the time I take notice of him, his voice will be broken, he’ll have mustache and all that. But I really Thank God for that time I spent with my little brother. Just him and I. I believe these moments will be etched in his mind as he grows up. I would really want to be a wonderful sister to him. Someone whom he can go to when he has problems.
2. This wonderful break that I am having now. I believe I am going through a season. A time of testing. I pray that at the end of this metamorphosis, I’ll be more grounded with my values and convictions.
3. The wonderful weather in the morning when it rains and I can roll out of bed late.
4. Surrounding me with people today. Cos I really hate being alone now.
I know life is worth living with such a God by my side.
love,
l.
polkas.
My week’s been A awesome.
Random get together at Cheryl’s place on Friday night.
Cheryl’s Birthday cum Secondary school gathering on Saturday night
And Sentosa with the CG after service.
i
cannot
wait
for
what’s gonna happen in 2 weeks’ time!!
love,
l
smickety.
As she looks out of her window, the engine from the cars and children’s voices at the playground made up a rather melancholic Friday afternoon. The sun’s intense brightness hurt her eyes and she put the blinds back. Chinese oldies from the radio being played by the shophouse was the maestro among the nuances of noise. It gave a lazy, relaxing feel.
She could not help but thank God for today. A nice relaxing day in her own room, sitting by her best companion,
oops!
she can’t continue this dramatic novel. cos she need to go out hang with her high school pals
ciao!!!
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