Mission for the month of July
get my self esteem back.
have something to look forward to.
make myself proud and feel worthy once again.
YESSSSSSSSS!!!!
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adapted.
Elizabeth Elliot says she is often asked the question, “What can I do to get him to notice me?” Note carefully the advice she gives.
My answer is ‘nothing.’ That is, nothing toward the man.
Don’t call him. Don’t write a little note with a smiley face or a flower or a fish under the signature and put it in his campus mailbox. Don’t slide up to him in the hall and gasp, ‘I’ve just got to talk to you!’ Don’t look woebegone, don’t ignore him, don’t pursue him, don’t do him favors, don’t talk about him to nine carefully selected listeners.
There is one thing you can do: turn the whole business over to God. If he’s the man God has for you, ‘No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly’ (Psalm 84:11). Direct your energies to obedience, not to nailing the man. God has His own methods to getting the two of you together. He doesn’t need help or advice from you’
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walk.
A couple of weeks back, Jojo and I were walking around the neighbourhood and we saw this.
that’s 5 kittens with the mom.
There’s a white kitten in between the two black kittens.
And there’s a black kitten in between the white kitten and the Mama cat.
Camera phone can’t really show it well.
This scene was very heart warming.
Tea after thai food.
=P
Jojo’s favourite toy.
Okay.
ciao
i like going hockey when Jojo is around.
love,
ljcl
hjfj,
ilvm
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beamy.
it’s times like this that,
loving somebody and being loved is the best thing that can happen to you.
ilovemybestieveryverymuch.
(more happy news on my life coming up in the next few days watch this site! HAHA!)
love,
ljcl.
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season of change
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:11-13
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for this season of stretching and change.
We believe it will not be a smooth path, but we trust in Your unending provision of strength. You will not put us in situations we cannot handle.
All glory to You dear Lord.
Use us as an instrument to fulfill Your ultimate purpose.
In Jesus’ mighty name I ask and pray.
Amen.
love,
lyndel J.
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wet.
The past few days and especially today had been one of the most agonizing days in my life
And I’m not exaggerating.
I hate it when I have my PMS and think negative thoughts.
Impulsively sending weird messages to my best friend.
But this time, I think my PMS had gone a bit too far.
I couldn’t sleep last night.
Tossing and turning.
Thinking.
Praying.
At work, my whole body felt so weak.
And my heart was palpitating so fast, I had to take a breather.
Somehow, I think everything is going great but me thinking too much is just endangering everything.
But despite all these,
I’m thankful that I’ve grown closer with God.
you’re still the brightest firefly in my jar.
love,
lyndel j.
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reflection.
Okay, so I’ve been reflecting a lot lately.
I’ve also reflected on the action of reflection.
Here are my findings thoughts.
1. I think too much.
This had become quite bad at times in some situations when it should be better to take it easy.
2. I really need to slap myself and get out of my comfort zone.
3. I realise I’ve become so comfortable being led rather than leading.
4. I am too dao for my own sake. I need to loosen up. And be more outgoing.
5. I need to drill this in my head, “There are no such things as strangers. It just takes a smile for them to become friends”
6. ABOVE ALL ELSE,
TAKE IT EASY PEASY, LITTLE PENNY.
love,
ljcl.
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swirl
dear God,
please help us.
guide us.
grant us wisdom.
give us a common purpose for it to be meaningful.
give us the strength.
provide us with directions.
refresh us dear Lord.
teach us how to make it work for Your purpose.
and on top of that,
Be the Centre and our Focus.
love,
ljcl
HJFJ,
ILYVM.
L,
LJCL.
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Tuesday
It was the best weekend I had in a really looooooooooong time.
Kallang Riverside for the IVP Wakeboarding 2009 to support Jojo.
He was awesome!!!!!!! Like that. Awesome.
And he got 1st!
And then hang out with some of my course mates at Playground @ the Big Splash.
Sunday was spent on a “drive around the city” for a mission to help Alfred send information to his clients.
Then off to Kallang Riverside again with the cell group to give another support to the wakeboarder
Headed to East Coast Park after that for cycling.
Been 6 years since I last cycled and I’m so impressed with myself that I can still do it.
Though a bit cautious when there are bikes on my sides.
To sum it up,
Weekend’s been so refreshing.
I like it.
Dear God,
Please grant me a purpose.
I pray that I’ll get a full time job soon.
I also pray for an opportunity to go for a mission trip to India this year.
Refresh me and may I be on fire again.
In Jesus’ name
Amen.
love,
ljcl
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This morning, I was super happy.
Yesterday night, my heart was full of excitement.
Actually the day before, I was already looking forward to Monday.
And then this morning, I receive his text that all flights are fully booked and will only be back on Wednesday.
i’m so upset
i can almost kill a thousand and one cockroaches
boil them over hot sulphur.
and stab them with ultra sharp knife.
i’m so upset
i can steal a baby’s toy and not return him till he stops crying
i’m so upset
i can use a hockey stick and hit the ball till the already dilapidated goal post finally give in.
i’m so upset
i need someone to talk to.
=(
ljcl
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five days.
My best friend’s gone holiday over the weekend at Bali.
Hopefully he’s gonna get some surf lovin.
He may not know this but I think he’s really attractive in this area where he’s so passionate about Surfing.
(Though we may get into mini fights here and there. But I truly do support him in ways he may not see)
I wish I could be there with him witnessing his first attempt.
And I’d really wanna do water sports with him someday.
My best little brother has gone holiday throughout the month.
Hopefully he’ll be back by next Sunday
With nice pinoy goodies.
And my momma and poppa safe back home.
=)
And I pray to God that He’ll protect my loved ones from harm from the crown of their head to the soles of their feet.
And may the angels surround them everywhere they go.
Yes they’ll be safe back home soon.
love,
lyndel j.
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The only ONE.
His love is constant, unfaltering, unfailing.
You’ll be sure He’ll be there
At every tear you cry.
At every crisis with you.
At every fear to comfort you.
To give you security in times of uncertainty.
And that’s why God is the one and only who deserves your WHOLE heart to.
Dear Lord,
I want to fall fall fall fall fall in love with you again.
I want to go back to my first love.
love,
lyndel j.
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orange.green.red.blue.
grey.
That’s the colour that describes my life right now.
monochrome.
gray. grey. gray. grey.
I wish I could really be convicted
to
take this one and only life
and live it for God.
not just saying it.
but to have the urgency.
Seems like since Internship started,
my life had become so different from before.
Transition maybe?
I feel boring.
Me. Boring.
Unadventurous.
Purposeless.
I feel so tired.
love,
lyndel j.
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sixteen days; six days.
The week seemed very long after 9 consecutive days of working.
Tiring but at the same time satisfying that I’m at least out there doing something instead of letting my bum get bigger staying at home.
I was looking at the kids today playing in the pool at WWW and I got reminded how carefree I used to be — just like those kids who only need to worry about their exams or whether their friends will still be friends with them. Blah blah blah.
I realise the older I get, the more I realise that I don’t know how life is about actually. How ironic cos shouldn’t we know more about life as we get older? But now, it seems like I know lesser about it compared to when I was a child.
Anyhow, I miss little brother.
I miss the noise he makes.
I miss his voice.
I miss him when I open the door and he is not in the living room, in his room nor in the kitchen.
I miss my little brother.
SIXTEEN DAYS Till I see my little brother.
And come Friday to Monday (or Tuesday) I’m gonna miss my Precious.
But I shall whine about that when the day comes.
SIX days till my Precious leaves on an airplane.
I’ll be a sad miserable lonely soul for 5 days.
Please ask me out on Friday, Sunday (after church), Monday or maybe Tuesday.
I’m out on Saturday.=)
Dear God,
Please prepare me for the lonely days ahead.
I thank you for my friends who are going to make my 5 days without my favourite boys enjoyable.
=P
Love,
lyndel j.
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This week,
I’m gonna go back to my roots.
The stuff that I love doing by myself and with my close friends.
Going outdoors,
Shopping,
Jogging,
Movies,
Girl talks,
Something different for a change.
And to those who still love me,
I really do actually love surprises. simple surprises.
No harm in having something different, no matter how small – a small note, a tiny dandelion – once in a while.
And to those who still love me,
I really do love receiving letters and notes and little hand made stuff.
I keep them in my nice big box.
=)
hjfj,
I STLL RLLY D LV Y V V M.
love,
ljcl
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Bunny Rabbit.
At the strike of 12.
That’s 9 months for you.
=)
HJFJ,
ILVVM.
L,
LLJC.
love,
ljcl
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HJFJ
And I remember we ate at Subway,
Walked from school to there.
I remember you asked me which instrument I played.
You wore the Black ripcurl tee.
And me, a yellow nike polo tee.
The grapes on your walls,
Us sitting down while you kick my black flip flop.
When I asked whether I could hold it.
And without waiting for a reply, I held it anyway.
Tired as you were,
Fountain,
Playground.
Camping.
Cooking.
Waiting for me at the airport till it’s Six.
And now.
It’s three quarter of a year.
And i slap myself on the face for taking those moments for granted.
Thinking it’ll last forever.
But I guess
We all need to grow.
And it may require us to gulp some bitter medicine.
To my favourite someones,
Jonny, Precious, Tootsie Roll, Cute Ass and my Bunny Rabbit.
I pray that God will be our guide.
Love,
ljcl
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Parable
;(
So this story goes back way before the chinese invented chopsticks and Christopher Columbus found America.
There lived a little peasant girl in a farm.
One fine Friday her best friend the shepherd decided that he should go out to play with her since the sheep are eating the grasses and he was so bored.
So the shepherd sent out a smoke signal to the little peasant girl.
“I’ll come by in an hour or two. I’ll pack lunch for both of us too”
The little peasant girl was hesitant because she knew the sheep will need to be gathered before the sun goes down.
And she didn’t want her best friend the shepherd to have to play with her for an hour and then go rush back to tend the sheep.
The little peasant girl wanted quality time with her best friend the shepherd.
Not rushed lunch quickie.
But before the little peasant girl could reply any smoke messages, the shepherd boy was on his way down with two packs of chicken chop and some penne.
The peasant girl was happy of course.
She get to spend time with her best friend.
But when the clock stroke 1745 hours, the shepherd boy had to rush back to gather the sheep.
“So I’ll smoke to you when I reach home? I’ll probably go back home after tending my flock. I’m really tired.”
“Oh. Oh okay”, was the peasant girl’s reply.
“You’re always so tired anyway. Gone are the days when despite you’re exhaustion, you’ll come by the barn by my family farm”, the little peasant girl whispered to herself.
Little does the shepherd boy know that the peasant girl wanted to spend the Friday night with her best friend.
Now, the little peasant girl is stuck at home all by herself on a Friday night.
Blogging in parable. okay since there’s no religious connection more like a metaphor.
Why can’t the male species get it???????
love, ljcl
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Graduated!!!!
You know what,
Instead of brooding over what I should have done, I should just celebrate my accomplishment.
I GOT A DIPLOMA BAYBEEE!!
(not that it’s such a big qualification compared to a degree but hey! better than my JC graduate friends who only have an A level Cert).
Cheers to the 3 enjoyable years in that small cosy TP campus overlooking the picturesque reservoir.
Cheers to the companions whom I’ll look back 10 years from now and smile at how they have shaped me.
love,
ljcl
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almost graduated.
>> Sorry, you have no access rights to the system.
That’s what I got when I tried to access to the booking system in the TP website.
Been going back to TP lately to help out with CCA Recruitment and for Hockey Trainings.
I remembered when I just got out of secondary school and thinking, “How am I gonna survive 3 years of poly? 2009 seems such long time from now”
It felt weird being older to more than 90% of those kids.
Sitting at the mushroom all by myself yesterday made me reminisce those times we people-watch.
I remembered the last day of year 1 when Sock, Krissy and I were hanging at the entrance of the bridge wishing people Goodbye and goofing around. Sort of saying goodbye to our freshman days as well.
AH. But I have no wish whatsoever to be a student all over again.
Even though without a doubt, it’s been the BEST 3 years of my life.
I’m done with dumb, unrealistic projects.
Done with tests and exams.
for now lah.
I feel older and wiser now that I’ve gone pass the third phase of my education career.
I look back at those intense and stressful moments rushing projects, staying up trying to study the last set of notes.
I KNEW I COULD DO IT.
with God by my side.
YES! I’M ALMOST GRADUATING.
love,
ljcl
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With all I am
Into Your hands, I commit again
with all I am, for you Lord, you hold my world in the palm of your hand, and I am Yours forever
Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You
You’re the reason that I live, the reason that I sing, with all I am
I’ll walk with You, where you go, through tears and joy
I’ll trust in You, and I will live
In all of your ways, your promises; forever
Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You
You’re the reason that I live, the reason that I sing
Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You
You’re the reason that I live, the reason that I sing
With all I am
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
I will worship, I will worship You
Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You
You’re the reason that I live, the reason that I sing
With all I am
love,
ljcl
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Yesterday.
Yesterday, it dawned on me that I am now an ADULT when I changed an EZ Link card to the new one. The 5-letter word slapped me as if to say, “WAKE UP! No more a kid or teenager!”
Time to be self sufficient.
Been watching the OC lately and there was one scene when Marissa’s sister told her to “make a decision, stick to it and don’t regret”. I have never been one who’s fickle minded but I don’t know what actually happened that made me turn into this indecisive, long haired, feminine being that I am now.
One of my worst fears is probably making a decision and regretting it later. I’ll feel so unstable.
I hate asking myself questions such as “What could have happened if…..?”
I guess the pre requisites of being labeled an adult is the ability to think for oneself.
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There are so many things that I’ve yet to learn and to apply in my life.
Sometimes I think, that what is learnt becomes worthless when it is not applied in our lives. I mean what’s the use of knowing that being courteous is good for the society when we don’t apply it in our lives?
Every single soul in this world knows that but we don’t apply it. Would I be wrong to say that such teaching is actually worthless?
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At times, I ask myself questions like why get into relationships when I have been so secure being just by myself when God was the only One in my life.
(And these are the very questions that makes me an indecisive person. But then again … it’s always to good to look back once in a while and count our blessings)
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If we expect so much in a person or thing, when they don’t deliver, disappointment sets in.
But God never disappoint us.
**********
Food for thought that got me contemplating when asked what’s the hardest to master in playing the Drums.
I said Coordination with the hands and the feet.
He nods and openly thought, indeed, COORDINATION is the HARDEST to master. Your spirit/heart and your actions are very hard to coordinate. Sometimes, you say something but doesn’t not coordinate with what your spirit/heart wants.
Why is that?
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And a few minutes ago, Joo just called asking me what time I’m meeting him and I said, I’m lazy to go out today. But when I put down the phone, my heart became burdened. But I do want to hang out with him today.
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Oh how life works in a complicated way.
No wonder people simplify it by becoming atheist.
love,
ljcl
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sunsets and sunrays.
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love,
ljcl
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Tootsie Roll
A post specially dedicated to my favourite Tootsie Roll.
love
<3
Penny Apple.
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a long thought.
I learnt that the only way to be truly happy is to put your trust in the Almighty.
I learnt that the way to be positive is to look at what’s the worst thing that could have happened
and be thankful it didn’t happen.
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about Lisa.
Today, my best friend found somebody new.
It all started innocently when we were too bored hanging out playing Battle Field.
I suggested we go walk around his neighbourhood.
And so we walked and walked.
Walked pass places we never knew existed.
There was a funfair going on.
It felt like we were those olden day couple where the boy and the girl are sharing a cotton candy and walking around the funfair (well, there wasn’t a cotton candy)
And then we entered this place that seemed way too inviting to pass.
We laughed at some of the items being displayed.
But as we walked deeper into the shop,
My best friend spotted something at the corner of his eye,
He walked gingerly towards her and examined her.
Although she was not very much at her top condition,
My best friend admired her with much interest.
He ran his fingers over her long smooth body and started to salivate.
That was when he fell in love with Lisa.
I tried to convince him that she’s no good.
But he won’t listen.
The shop was about to close so we made our way out.
My best friend was downcast.
I tried to console him that he’ll find better girls elsewhere.
But still, he won’t listen.
The very next day, I met my best friend again.
This time, to get the girl of his dreams.
When I saw him that afternoon, I could see the excitement across his face.
He walked with a bounce.
And so, we walked and walked closer to the shop by every step that we made.
What might have seem like a thousand miles to my friend soon ended.
And there we were, standing right in front of Lisa.
My best friend grabbed her by the waist and made his way carefully to the cashier.
As he walked, people stole glances at him.
The people behind the counter tried to hide their laughter.
As he walked out of the shop, people giggled and laughed.
“Oh look it’s a surfboard,” an elderly lady exclaimed.
I couldn’t hide the blushes on my face.
So today, Ladies and Gentleman, my bestfriend has somebody new sitting in his room.
She’s gonna be the first and the last person he’ll see for the day.
And I’m gonna play with my guitar with tears rolling down my rosy cheeks.
Cos he’s the only thing that keeps me wishing on the wishing star.
He’s the song in the car, I keep singing don’t know why I do.
Tonight, when he sent me home, I faked a smile so he won’t see.
love,
ljcl
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a few of my favorite things.
. sushi
. rainbow eyes smiles
: )
love,
ljcl
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I’m not writing this to tell everybody that being in a relationship is such a hassle. I’m not. There are good and bad in each situations. The following is for the singles.
This entry is to glorify the cool single girls out there
1. Because you are so attractive in your own ways
2. Because you are so secure in yourself
3. Because you know how to have fun
4. Because you have all the freedom to yourself without being bound by the other person
5. Because you can achieve so much greater for self-growth
6. Because you are independent
7. Because you are so strong
8. Because God love you so much, He wants your whole heart for now
So dear friends,
There’s no hurry to be in a relationship just because your other friends are in it.
I think YOU ARE SO COOL BEING SO STRONG.
<3
love,
ljcl
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