i’m running towards the big white blankets that God has prepared for me.
nice and cosy you see.
oh, the security
oh, the safety.
i’m running and jumping into His warm loving arms.
the storm is ending soon.
I am back from my little getaway.
Back from the ultimate road trip.
Back from my little escapism.
Although it was a short time, it felt like I have been away for ages.
The past three days got me thinking about putting my life in God’s hands. On the first day, we went to the theme park with all the roller coasters and stuff that brings your heart to your mouth.
Riding on a roller coaster is the same as living your life by faith. We know these rides are not going to be smooth. There’s going to be bumps along the way. There will be times when you are high and times when you are down. And sometimes, in life, it does happen like that. One moment, you are on top of the world, the next day you will be at the lowest pit. It may happen in a snap.
Living a life controlled by God is exciting. If I can be candid about it. At times, we would close our eyes when it plunges down. It is never easy living by faith. It is never easy taking that first step to sit on that roller coaster. We hold on tight. We close our eyes. We shout, we scream.
We know we are secure in the rides, seat belts, double seat belts, but we are still fearful. Likewise, God is our safety belt. He’ll never let us go through it without the safety belts. He even installed double seat belts to ease our minds. But we still worry that things may not go according to plan.
But you know what, at the end of the ride, everything turns out well. You had fun. You experienced it. The adrenaline rush. The fear. The euphoria.
I know this period of inertia for me is sort of like the part where the roller coaster starts. Slow and uncertain. I started from the low point and I am at the period of going up…slowly.
love,
l
i’m weird, eccentric and at times, a little insecure.
i’m emotional
i make mistakes.
but if you can’t handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
My week’s been A awesome.
Random get together at Cheryl’s place on Friday night.
Cheryl’s Birthday cum Secondary school gathering on Saturday night
And Sentosa with the CG after service.
i
cannot
wait
for
what’s gonna happen in 2 weeks’ time!!
love,
l
i’m gonna be locking some of my posts.
if you know me well enough, you’ll know the password
my surname.
=)
love,
lyndel
i still melt
with that rianbow eyes smile.
i still do.
First and foremost, thank you for the birthday wishes. thankyou thankyou.
I feel so very blessed on my birthday.
Thank you guys soooo soooo much for your presence at the surprise party.
I’d like to make a special acknowledgement to my Awesome Sister who planned such AWESOME party.
Awesome awesome sister I must say. I can’t even find words to start with it.
Awesome.
And and to my SUPER SUPER AWESOME Cell group.
Jojo, Joe Wee, Jolene, Serene, Frankie, Denise, Kelvin, Tiffany, Claire, Alfred, You Lian, Winston, Wei Ye., Jae who gave me the bestest bestest surprise ever of coming to my house, decorating it and singing a song for me at the wee hours in the morning! Imagine that! 1.30am. Thank you guys for sacrificing your sleep for me. To Grace for your concern about the actual day.
And of course,thank you to my Maker
More to come in the next entry. Too Tired now but I just got to thank these awesome people in my life.
Today is the start of a fresh new year.
Renewal.
I’m putting the past in a nice little box,
And got it locked.
Today is the 3rd year anniversary for this little companion.
Thank you llyndel.wordpress.
You’ve listened to my 3 years of rants and raving.
Here’s to more years ahead.
cheers,
lyndel
(proper birthday post coming in due time)
stop being emo woman!
and get on with LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THERE’S SO MUCH THAT LIFE CAN OFFER.
TIME TO GET OUT THERE,
HAVE FUN WHILE YOU’RE STILL YOUNG.
FORGET ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT’S MAKING YOU SO MISERABLE.
HERE’S ONE LIFE.
LIVE IT.
don’t look back
do not ever look back.
Ecclesiastes 7
10Do not say, “Why were the old days better than these?”
For it is not wise to ask such questions.
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Poof poof poof!
And it’s the 20th of September!!!!
I do not like it.
I want to stall time.
But at the same time, I’m quite excited with what I’m planning to do.
If it’s God’s will, He’ll open the doors.
cheers.cheers.cheers.
L.
dearest you,
so here we are,
a year later.
you held my hand so tightly that day.
as we crossed that road
it could have been a yearful of laughter and love.
but I guess God has better plans.
i still love you dearly,
though i can’t hold your hands anymore
or hug you real tightly
and i still melt
when you smile at me with your rainbow eyes smile.
I thank God for this break cos
I learnt to appreciate you even more than I already did in the past.
love,
me.
My weekend’s been shbaang.
Friday night was spent in this place called Actors with a live band;- Uncles who play electric guitar and gets really high singing “Born to be Wild”. And the sexyphone saxophone Uncle wore shades the whole night. But the Blues that they played was pretty good.
After chilling with the uncles, proceeded to Timbre hoping to get a seat. And yes! We got a nice seat right in front of the band. Oh my, I swear my knees quivered, my heart melted and I heaved a long sigh when they sang Your Body is a Wonderland and Lips of an Angel. The vocalist’s voice was so …. umm.. nice? I don’t even know how to describe it.
Saturday was half day in the office and a nice lazy day hanging out with Jojo and his wakeboarding clique.
Had an aweshhhbang time catching up with a primary school friend whom i’ve not met in 7 YEARS later that night. It’s pretty funny how names and incidents come out so naturally. I had a ssshwelll time reminiscing those times so loooong agoooo. Primary 5 camps, the garden my “superior” class used to look after, the newspaper corner, P6 kids kissing in the washroom, girls who wear so much talcum powder, parent-support group aka KEPO parents…
Sunday after church was driving around to wherever that came up to our minds.
Of chicken rice and Swensen’s GIANT EARTHQUAKE!!
“Which flavour is this? Butterscotch? Ahhhh. nice nice Chendol is the best”
“YES!!! THAT’S THE ONE! THAT’S VANILLA!”
and yesterday, I slept at 8 pm and woke up at 7.45 am.
Aweeessshebang!
So my weekend passed by real quick.
I can’t wait to get back to drumming lessons this week!
Thank God for the happy times.
love,
L
i wish i was the one you’re spending your friday with.
and
i wish you were the one i’m spending my friday with.
and,
if only i can dig out my heart and show you the last thing i ever EVER want to do is to hurt you.
if that makes you certain about us,
i’d do that.
lyndel
patience
patience
patience
calm heart
calm heart
calm heart
actually,
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
i
miss you
more than you ever know.
lyndel
have you ever had those moments
when you want everything to end
and go up to heaven with Jesus?
and when you wish you can just burn and bury all these memories.
pretending they never existed.
and shut that mouth of discouragement
Yeah. This is that moment for me.
lyndel
Love is like an onion
You taste it with delight
But when it’s gone, you wonder
Whatever made you bite
Love is a funny thing just like a lizard
He curls up around your heart
And jumps into your gizzard
Love is swell. It’s enticing.
It’s orange gel. It’s strawberry icing.
It’s chocolate moose. It’s roasted goose.
It’s ham on rye. It’s banna pie.
Love is all good things without a question.
In other words, it’s indigestion.
****
Slippery ice, very thin
Pretty girl, tumbles in
Saw a boy on the bank
Gave a shriek then she sank
Boy on hand, heard the shout
Jumped right in, pulled her out
Now she’s his.
Very nice.
But she had to break the ice.
****
I know one day I’ll look back at this time of my life and laugh it all off
CHEERS!
lyndel!
i’ve been feeling better
thanks
a lot
and I feel
dark clouds are clearing.
cheers!
lyndel
Been a rather fulfilling weekend.
With Ah Meng to start it off on Friday.
“Lyntell! Havoc lah havoc.”
Saturday was out in the sea fishing.
And I thank God for cheering me up with a nice yellow fish.
Yes, I caught a fish.
(:
Sunday was spent with the cell
And this You-Crazy-what?! burger with 3 big fat pattie that I shared with Jojo side mashed potato cheese as the side was superb.
I still kinda miss the old days when i just spend it lazily with Tootsie Roll.
And how badly i want to hold his hand.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for sustaining me through this season.
Continue to grant me the strength to wait upon You.
I believe You have a great plan.
I praise You dear Jesus.
In Jesus Holy name,
Amen.
love,
lyndel
oh how i long for those days long ago.
when i could just snuggle up to my parents bedroom in my pajamas.
and hide under the warm blanket.
and when my mom would rub my back with a powder
and i felt soooooooooo safe.
and everything was under control.
and nothing else mattered cos of the safety and security i felt back then.
dear Lord,
calm the storms in me,
bring me to the secret place where nothing else matters.
in the chaos,
in my weakness,
there I am restored.
love,
lyndel
sometimes,
right now.
i’m asking myself.
am I being too vulnerable?
am I too honest with my feelings that it’s causing complications?
i know i shouldn’t even be writing an entry about the boy i want to stop thinking about.
that’s very thing that’s keeping me in agony.
and that which makes me sound like a desperate girl (no. i’m not)
but.
i still miss him.
he may have his weakness.
he may make me frustrated at times.
but.
he still make me smile.
and the last time I really genuinely smiled was probably the last time we spent together.
i still miss my tootsie roll.
once in a while.
when i’m all alone.
cos he’s the person who’ll accompany me when I’m all alone.
dear Jesus,
help me.
love,
lyndel
Waiting on God is going to worth the long wait.
dear Lord,
cradle me in Your arms.
whisper to my ears that every EVERY little thing’s gonna be alright.
EVERY
LITTLE
THING
love,
lyndel
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